My little Emanuel
After seven years of trying, and I mean trying everything; including sleeping with ice-packs between my legs (ouch) ; my wife and I were about to give up and adopt. But as it turned out, Cathy wasn't ready to give up just yet. One night, at our bible study, Cathy made the impossible leap. This beautifully devout Catholic girl, stepped outside the boundaries of her religion, and asked us, a protestant group to pray for her womb to open. May I be damned if I lie, but three nights from that night, Cathy was pregnant. I learned a very valuable lesson from this experience. At first I wondered if it was us, the collective of God-loving friends, who prayed for her and won God's ears. But soon I realized that itt wasn't us who won the heart of God. It was Cathy.
That sweet angel had more love for God, in one breath, than I could wish for in a day. She bypassed everyone and everything and went straight to God, and placed herself before Him. So God gave her a miracle. He gave her a son. Cathy knew that getting pregnant could kill her, and that this was by no means going to be a joy-ride for her. But she was unconcerned. While the rest of us were killing ourselves with worrying about her health and her child's health, Cathy was enjoying her pregnancy, knowing that God was not stupid enough to give her a son, and not give her the ability to carry him full-term!
Cathy loved the name David, and David it was. After all, she risked her life to give me a son; so it was only fair for her to choose our baby's first name. Moving on, David is the only grandson to my father, Ali. So Ali was of course my choice for his middle name.
I have no regrets, but still, knowing where he came from, there was one name that I wished I could have given my little boy, the name of the miracle maker who was a miracle himself, Emmanuel. As it happens, we have a beautiful tradition in Iran, which allows for a father to whisper his wish-name into the ear of his little boy or girl. The first time I got to hold my son in my arms, I looked into his beautiful eyes, fell in love with him, blessed him, welcomed him into my life, and whispered in his ear, "You are Emmanuel-- God is with us."
David, you were born of love, and you are the gift that has never stopped giving. I love you dearly.